Weigh In & A Little Deep Thought

It's Wednesday, sometimes it seems like I can tell how the whole week will go on Wednesday. If I've lost some- I'm feeling pretty confident about losing weight for the week. If I haven't- it isn't looking good. I've been a little more loose in the evenings with eating (aka after dinner snacking), but have been completely within my total calories for the day (this week between 1400-1700).   I've also been sure to include a LOT of protein.  Breakfast = Protein shake (100% Whey Protein Powder from Cytiosport), Almond Milk and 2 tablespoons of PB2 (regular) which works out to be about 230 calories. Snack = cottage cheese or string cheese and one of my homemade protein bars (195 calories, 22 grams of protein, 4 g of fat). Lunch = salad with some sort of meat or bean for protein. Snack = fruit. Then about 3 pm = 2nd protein shake (water, protein powder and BP2).  Dinner is usual around 400 calories.  The after dinner snack has been popcorn. Which is really sort of silly because it's not like popcorn is this amazing food.  I realized after I ate the popcorn last night that I didn't even think about it. Mindfulness. I must remember to be mindful in my eating.
About 7 years ago I was searching for something to help me through a rough time (before I met my amazing wife) and I found Buddhism and ultimately meditation.  As an anxious person the idea of meditation was INSANE- how on earth could I sit with my thoughts. I started with mindful eating and walking meditation. As I usually do, I took it to the next level and the next and pretty soon I was able to sit with myself for an ENTIRE day.  Not only do I forget about my ability to learn and condition myself to reach my goals but I have also forgotten to take. a. minute. Think. Then eat. It is pretty simple, but goodness I need it tattooed on my palm or something.
As this journey continues on and the 'shinniness' of working out and eating right wear off, I am starting to realize I need to take note of these little things that will make a BIG difference in the future. I know I will hit my goals with weight loss and muscle gain, but I guess what I am scared as hell about is letting it slip away again.  The older I get, the harder this will be. This means I have to mindfully take these important little things, along with the big lessons I am learning, and keep them close- these are the things that will sustain my healthy lifestyle.
These days I definitely don't get much time for formal meditation, I do take time to reflect while I work out and I find that my faith in God is something that helps me when I really want to go buy that XL blizzard from DQ. 
Back the the weigh in- scale was back at 183.4 this morning.  So this week might be a wash, but I also will be able to get my long run in this Saturday.  Today was 5 miles and I did my abs and triceps at home since I ran (hehe) out of time at the gym this morning.